Some Things I Learned

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

I was sitting at work, listening to music, working and thinking. I would have to say, don't trust a 25-year old who drives a pimped Ford Escort. Don't trust a guy who has a curfew of 9 p.m. and has a crap-load of CD's but doesn't have one Prince cd. Who in 2005 drives a FORD ESCORT?? OK, my car isn't a Maybach, but it's respectable. I wouldn't be ashamed to be seen in it. I was glad that the windows were tinted just in case I saw anyone I knew.

Mike seems to think that he can come back anytime he pleases and I will be here waiting. As if. (Wow, that was so 80's!) He left here mad last night because I told him he should stay with his girlfriend. I went through my depression stage and was probably at my lowest. I tend to compare any bad situation with how I felt when my grandmother died. I was bad then - not sleeping, eating or wanting to see my friends - but with Mike, it was a different kind of feeling. I figure, why do I want to put myself through that again? I made it through this time, barely, and I don't ever want to do it again. I think it's best that we both move on. I can't really help it if he doesn't like that idea. He didn't keep my feelings in mind when he cheated.

Dre is going to come and visit soon. He emailed me and asked if we could role-play. He wants me to be Rosita, the Spanish speaking mama in a French maid outfit. I told him he will be Pedro, the hot Latino cabana boy, rubbing suntan oil on me. Why couldn't HSN or the Golf channel have been hiring for producers? I'm glad he's only 8 hours away , but it's still not close enough.

The kids are driving me nuts! Brianne doesn't want to pay attention or do her homework, so she's grounded until November. Chiara learned to climb out of her crib, so she is up at the crack of dawn and running around. I liked it better when she slept until 11. I want some of the freedom that Mike has. Men can just walk away with no regrets and go on with their lives. I can't imagine ever walking away from them. They have given me some gray hairs, but I wouldn't change it for anything. I believe that they are what kept me going when I was so sad. I had to be strong for them. I guess God does work in mysterious ways.

Mich