This is how my mom tried to burn down my house on Thanksgiving. 

Sunday, Sunday

November 28, 2004: I can't believe it's already Sunday night. Where have my 4 days off, gone? I wasted a lot of time doing a whole lot of nothing! No Packers game today, they're on tomorrow, against the Rams. I read this great article about Brett Favre, on ESPN.com. Even if you're not a Packers fan, you have to appreciate the way that Favre plays. Tomorrow will be his 200th consecutive start. That's along the lines of Cal Ripkin, Jr.'s baseball streak. Anyway, enough about Favre. They also had the Top 10 best "Seinfeld" sports moments. Pure genius.

So, I admit I was on ESPN.com because I was thinking about D. Grrr. I want him out of my mind. On another blog, the author said she wished she could shred people out of her life. I just want some closure. Obviously, I won't be getting it, so why obsess?

I'm going to start working 11 hour days, starting tomorrow, just because I can use the extra money for Christmas. Plus I want to pay off the laptop early, and if I do so by January 25, there is no interest. I hate being in any kind of debt. Credit cards are the devil disguised in plastic. Since getting divorced, I haven't had any credit cards. I've always paid cash for everything; that tends to eliminate impulse buying.

A (my younger sister) is moving in with her boyfriend, C. F (her dad, I refuse to refer to him by anything but his first name because he's such a DICK) doesn't know who she's moving out with, but just that she's moving out. He will flip if he ever finds out. Somehow, it will be all my fault, as everything that her and K have done that is not up to his standards, has been. Can you tell I am bitter?

I always read the blog after mine, since they're always different. I've come across quite a few that are really interesting. It's amazing what other people are going through. I regret posting that I hate my life because that very day, the next blog was by an 18 year old girl who is battling cancer. I felt terrible saying something like that, when she's going through something major, like cancer and has the most upbeat and positive attitude. Now, when I want to freak out at Brianne for being a kid, I count to 10 while I think about her. I would let you in on the name of the blog, but I didn't get permission, and I don't want to make her mad or upset her. However, I did post a comment on her blog, so if she happens to be reading this, she knows who she is.

Mich

Everyone Is Still Alive

November 27, 2004: No one got sick, so I think we're in the clear. B has wanted nothing but turkey, for the last two days. C on the other hand, wants nothing to do with it. She spits it out as soon as she puts it into her mouth.

I got a virus, so I had to uninstall Windows XP and re-install it, along with everything else. I have no idea how the computer got a virus, since we don't download anything. I spent more time on the phone with the people from Dell, then I care to admit. Finally, after 24 hours - not all spent on the phone - it's back up and running.

I can't believe how fast the past three days have gone. I had wanted to go shopping yesterday, but couldn't because M worked at 7 a.m. I hope to be done in the next two weeks. This year will be easy because I only have to buy for B and C. M's family isn't getting anything, since they're not talking to us. Mom, K, A and I aren't buying for each other this year because it ends up costing too much. We decided if we were going to give each other anything, it would have to be homemade.

We're watching a show on the Food Network about Gingerbread Houses. It is amazing what people can do with icing, candy, and sugar. I wish I were that creative. I decided yesterday, that I want to be a family. I guess having Thanksgiving here, made me realize that I want to stay with M and try to work it out. Only time will tell. I told him our relationship could have been so much better if he hadn't been a fool in the beginning. I have gotten past it and want to start over. It is more than time to forgive him.

Mich

I Didn't Kill Anyone...Yet

November 26, 2004: So far, no one has come down with food poisoning. I stress, SO FAR. I was going to have everyone sign a release holding me harmless, but they wouldn't do it. Actually, dinner turned out very well. I will post pics of my beautiful turkey, once I upload them. I made everything, but the stuffing. We had, turkey, mashed potatoes, sweet potato casserole, jello, cranberry sauce, rolls, green bean casserole, pumpkin pie and sweet potato pie. There was only one mishap, and it wasn't my fault! Mom was putting the finishing touches on the sweet potatoes, and put them in the oven so the marshmallows could brown. They started on FIRE. If you could have seen her and K blowing the fire out, you would have died laughing. Of course I have a picture of the aftermath. I'm thinking it would make a great Christmas card.

If I never have to clean a turkey again, it will be too soon. I was thoroughly grossed out by that whole process. Sticking your hand inside of it to remove the gizzards, etc. Was awful. I thought I was doing surgery. My stomach was turning and I was gagging. Now I know why I'm not a doctor.

Besides the fact that we were going to eat at 3 and the turkey wasn't done until 6, it was an uneventful day. Seriously, I need a new oven. For the last 2 hours, I had the oven at 500. I was considering putting it on broil, when the timer popped up. The heavens opened and the angels sang, "HALLELUJAH". You're supposed to wait for 30 minutes before carving it, so the turkey isn't dry. We waited about 15 minutes. Twenty-five minutes later, we were all done. All that cooking, for 25 minutes of pleasure! B was the only one to eat dessert. The rest of us were way too full to even think about pie.

Mom and K left shortly after because they wanted to watch "Survivor." I cleaned up the kitchen and layed around. M had to go to his parents house. He was going to take C and B, but C was tired and fell asleep. B wanted to stay home and watch "Spiderman"

I am pretty proud of myself for such an accomplishment. I never cook and I made the whole meal! It was definitely time, I'm 35 and making my first Thanksgiving dinner. I wonder how old grandma was when she cooked the dinner for the first time. I'm guessing really young, since her mom died giving birth to her.

I am a little sad I didn't get to go to Milwaukee. However, they had cold weather and snow! It's in the 60's here and I can barely feel my fingers. Also, D probably would have been stuck at Midway, in Chicago, because that's what they showed on TV. They had 6-8 inches of snow. OK, I was a little jealous when I saw it, but was snapped back to reality when I looked in my closet and saw, two sweaters, three long-sleeved shirts and no winter jacket.

I hope your Thanksgiving was as good as mine.

Mich

I'm sick with the flu...

November 22, 2004: I have the flu, so I haven't been posting for the past few days. I'm not 100%, so I'm going to go to bed early tonight. 41 years ago, today, John F. Kennedy was assassinated. If you're interested, and you SHOULD be, please visit the site to pay your respects.

Hopefully, I will feel better tomorrow. I have to go shopping since, I'm cooking Thanksgiving dinner, for the first time, ever. (Keep my two children in your prayers! They could very well end up in the ER.) This should provide plenty of blogging. Again, it will be worth plenty of laughs.

Mich

I Hate My Life!

November 19, 2004: M called me at work to tell me that there is a note from the leasing office, on the door, saying that I have 7 days to vacate the apartment. Of course I have no idea what is going on, it's not like I haven't paid the rent. I hurried him off the phone so I could call the office. The first 3 times, they didn't answer the phone. When I finally got the receptionist on the phone, she acted like she didn't know what it was all about. I had to practically recite the letter before her memory was refreshed. I was put on hold while the leasing bitch - I mean manager - came to the phone. When she picked up, she asked me all kinds of questions and then proceeded to start bitching me out.

It seems that she SAW B cutting ALL the screens doors in Building 5. Then she said, all the residents fo Bldg. 5 went down to the office and told her that B was the one who cut the screens. Then the story changed to she had gotten 4 letters saying that the screens had been cut and B did it. Make up your mind! Which was it?? OK. B was grounded last weekend when this supposedly took place. She said that I had to pay for the screens or move out. Also, if it happened again, I would be evicted.

By this time, I was extremely pissed and couldn't yell back at her, because I was at work. She told me that she has had to yell at B several times for being bad. I asked her why I hadn't been informed, and she said she didn't know who Bri 'belonged' to. I guess she finally figured it out after her daughter, who goes to school with Bri, told her. She said she had never met me. HELLO, we were only down there every day, during the summer, using the gym. (Before the card reader was broken and not fixed for 2 months.) Now, she suddenly has no idea who I am. Plus, since the time they lost my rent check, I always hand my check to her AND get a receipt.

So, to make a long story longer, I got her boss' phone number because I don't appreciate her accusing Bri of doing it, with no proof. Plus, she lied and changed her story, several times. She said that she had already informed her boss because she had been doing an investigation for the past week. Ok, Sgt. Joe Friday.

I tried calling the Leasing Property office, but no one answered, so I had to leave a message. I swear, I am going to go off when I talk to them. Ever since the new people took over, the place has gone down hill. There is always a ton of garbage piled up by the dumpster, around the dumpster, and in the parking lot. Plus, my screen was cut and someone tried to kick in the door, and it took 2 weeks for them to fix it. (She said the door was on back order, that's why it took so long. LIAR! They didn't replace the door, they just fixed the one I had.)

So, when I got off the phone, I had Mike talk to B. From what she said, she didn't do it. but she was there when M hatched the plan, and went along. Needless to say, she's grounded. When I get insurance, she's going into therapy. I know her life hasn't been easy, but I've tried. Too bad her dad hasn't done the same. In 7 years, all she's asked of him was to send a picture, so she could see if she looked like him. Since August he's been telling me the pictures are in the mail. Boy, I could have sworn we got rid of the Pony Express. I could have walked to Milwaukee and gotten the damn pictures myself! He wonders why I wouldn't sign the papers to expunge the $18,000 he owes in back child support!? We both made her, but so far, only I've taken responsibility for her.

I can't wait for the insurance to kick in, for me, too. I need to start taking Lexapro again, so I can stop stressing about everything.

I was going to post another link to something funny, but I'm not in the mood. Hopefully, things will be better tomorrow. I have learned my lesson and I will not complain about life being dull.

Mich

It's All About the Kids...

November 18, 2004: Tonight, it's all about the kids. I made you laugh yesterday with the DUI video. Tonight, prepare to laugh so hard, you'll cry. I'm talking the kind of laugh that makes your stomach hurt. This was sent to me by my mom. She has a sick sense of humor and I inherited it. ENTER AT YOUR OWN RISK!

Ok, so you want more? Take this quiz. Let me know your results.

Shameless begging ahead....Please, if you visit my site, post a pin on the map and maybe drop a comment. Lastly, come back and see me. That's it for today. Life in Tampa, FL is dull!

Mich

P.S. Did you see? I got my snow!

Hump Day

November 17, 2004: Thank god it's Wednesday. Only two days until payday. I hate being broke. Anyone who is rich and reading this, post a comment, so we can get in touch. ;)

I can't believe that next week is already Thanksgiving. Because of D's punk ass, I will be in Tampa, while mom and K go to Milwaukee. That means I get to make Thanksgiving dinner. Great, the kids will probably end up in the ER. I might take the cheaters way out, and get one of those complete dinners from Boston Market and just make my own stuffing. It's no secret I won't be replacing Martha Stewart any time soon. I hate having the mess in the kitchen (OCD is a bitch!)

I want to see some snow. I hated it when I lived in Milwaukee, but now that I see sunshine 95% of the time, I miss it. I saw online last week that CT was getting 4-6 inches of snow. What I wouldn't give to be able to have a snowball fight or make a snow angel!

In other mundane news: C went potty on the toilet! She can't be almost 2 already. It seems like I was just pregnant with her. She's just like her dad - temper and all. If she doesn't get her way, she throws a fit. (I don't know where she gets that from...M.)

This is the funniest thing I've seen in a long time: DUI Stop. Go ahead and watch and I dare you not to laugh. Get back to me with what you think. Personally, I was rolling. Bump, kick, bump, bump, kick! (Plus a twirl.)

Mich

Mockingbird...

November 16, 2004: This is quite possibly the best song ever written. Anyone who can listen to Eminem rap this song and not say he is a genius, doesn't know crap about music. Sure there are things he says that I don't necessarily agree with, but this song is incredible. It actually made me cry. I highly recommend the CD.

Nothing from D today. Surprise! I wasn't really expecting to hear from him. Curiosity is getting the better of me. I really want to know what the heck is going on, but I'm too proud to beg. The only thing that I can think of is that he got in trouble for using the company phone to call me. We talked a lot about some of the on air personalities (he works @ ESPN) but I doubt that could be the reason -- crap it's not the CIA, so I don't think they record phone calls.

I'm trying to figure out how to copy CD's and nothing is working. I am not technically illiterate, but I can't get it to work. I'm on the phone with Dell right now trying to get help. I've created CD's before so I know what I'm doing. It keeps telling me that there are no supported CD-Recorders available. HUH? I want to scream. Oh lord! Why do I have to deal with all the jackasses in the world? The wonderful Dell rep had me uninstall Roxio CD creator. Then tells me to get the disk and re-install it. Hello, Einstein, the program was already loaded on the computer when I bought it! Now, I really can't make CD's. He had the nerve to tell me to go back to the store and ask them to re-install it for me. If they don't then I'll 'have to purchase it. It only costs $69.95!!!' WTF?? My god, I think my head is going to explode.

OMG! Anna Nicole Smith is on ET. What the hell is up with her? Was she rolling at the AMA's or was that just my imagination. Her rep had the nerve to say it was because she has bad eyesight and couldn't see the Teleprompter! Yeah, and I'm a 6'0 Swedish model!

Mich

Messed up again...

November 15, 2004: Well, I finally heard from and it wasn't pretty. He said something cryptic about an unfortunate turn of events which have his job and future in jeopardy. What the hell is that supposed to mean? Then I get admonished for not asking what's been going on. HELLO! I've tried for the past three weeks with no response. Any sane reasonable person would take the hint. How the heck should I know that something is going on, if he doesn't tell me.

Then as if the day wasn't bad enough, B's dad quit his job, yet again. The pattern continues. He works long enough to get child support off his back and then quits. So I have to wait another 6 months to try and get him back in court. How can D wonder why I'm not trusting when I have to put up with this kind of crap?

The only bright spot...the Packers won. Although it looked they could lose the game, letting the Vikings come back from a 14 point deficit. Now they're in first place! Who would have thought when they were 1-4, they'd win 4 games in a row.

Hopefully, D will respond to my email, and it won't take forever. I'm not holding out hope.

Mich

Packers Sunday

November 14, 2004: I love Sunday's when the Packers are on TV in Tampa! I got all my cleaning, etc. out of the way, just so I had those few hours free to watch the game. The Badgers lost yesterday - bad - to Michigan, so they're no longer undefeated.

Today has been a good day. I won Eminem's new cd today, on the radio. Now I don't have to buy it. However, now I see that it actually came out on Friday, instead of this Tuesday, because of high demand. What kind of crap is that??? That's the same thing that they did with his last cd.

I still haven't heard from D. I have no idea what I did to piss him off so bad that he can't call or email. Doesn't he realize that i can make a fool out of myself without any outside help? Plus, I am not the type to keep trying even after I get no response. I get too bored too easily. I'm just glad that I didn't move to be with him. Then I'd be stuck in either CT or NC with no family or friends.

I can finally access my taxes online, tomorrow. That means that I can apply for financial aid and then try to get into FSU. After that the hardest decision will be should I move to Tallahassee and go on campus or stay in Tampa and go online. I have a lot of time to decide and I haven't even gotten accepted or gotten financial aid.

B is asking for something to eat, so I have to go be a mom. :)

Mich

Concentration

Concentration:
You're on my mind.
Thinking,
Feeling,
Dreaming,
Waiting.

Anticipation:
Remembering your body.
Yearning,
Needing,
Wanting,
Willing.

Realization:
Coming together as one.
Intoxication,
Domination,
Explosion,
Satisfaction.

9, 2004 Michele S.

Daily Rambling

November 13, 2004: I can't believe I wasted a Saturday, doing nothing but sitting on the computer playing a stupid game. What has my life come to? I was hoping that D had responded to my email, but no luck. I really wonder what the heck happened to him. Three weeks ago everything was great. I haven't heard from him since. Guys are strange that way. I guess it's payback for all the times I acted like the guy in the relationship and said I would call and didn't. Karma can be a bitch.

Don't even get me started on M. I seriously think he needs therapy. He gets pissed at the weirdest things. I can't wait to be 100% rid of him. Again, what the heck was I thinking there?

Mich

Guilty

November 12, 2004: Justice! Scott Peterson was found guilty of 1st degree murder. I am truly amazed that the jury came back with this verdict. I thought for sure he would be found not guilty or have a hung jury. Thankfully, the jurors got it right - unlike the OJ Simpson case.

Our whole office cheered when the verdict was read on the radio. I had already received an email letting me know, 10 minutes earlier. Leave it to MJ to have the news right away. We listen to a station that plays mostly music, so I didn't even know that the verdict was coming. I really need to get a radio that gets AM, so that I can stay on top of the news.

Mich